If I Said I Love You

If I said I love you
You’d go away
Just up and leave and
Never stay

If I said I love you
You’d stop and stare
Like I said something horrid
Or had snakes for hair

If I said I love you
I’d be alone again
You’d distance yourself
And I’d lose another friend

If I said I love you
Let’s get real
It doesn’t matter
What I think or feel

If I said I love you
But now you are here
So I close my mouth
And hope against fear

Then I said I love you
Await the inevitable groan
You smile and say I love you too
And I am not alone?

I said I love you
Wait for you to go away
Make some excuse
And yet you choose to stay

I said I love you
Long to embrace this light
To bridge the yawning chasm
That stills the flowing fright

I said I love you
But fear still holds my hand
I share my heart with you
So you will understand

I say I love you
Despite what may occur
I confront my raging demons
Till they lay back and purr

© A M Hunter February 2015