In the Meadow

In the Meadow I’ll play
Just once more
For old times sake
Before I close this door
Before I find
Myself
Unkind
This world too full
Of sadness
And cruelty
I’ve forgotten how to talk
To people I mean
You and I and the other
Inbetweens
We’re fine
It’s the others
They seem just
So far away
And like smoke
Or mist
They fade
Their words empty air
Their flesh grey
And crumbling like ash
The fire long since gone
And in its stead
This shadow
Of something that once
Held promise
A spark that should have
Burned
Much brighter
A yesterday that forgot
Once upon a time
It was
Tomorrow
Something new
And different
Not any more
It’s all just
Nothing
A void
Somewhere
Long forgotten
And I look at my hand
As it writes
And wonder
Why
I bother
Why I’m still
Here
When it’s all just
Meaningless
Mindless pain
Spinning around and around and
Around again
So in my head
I dream
Of wonders and places
I’ve never been
And down my road
I’ll take a step
And then another
Towards that blip
That is mine
Happiness
Divine
Call it whatever
It’s something
It’s never
Going to be just
Here
So I need to move
If I want
It near
So in the meadow
I’ll play
Once more
And then forever
Close this door.

© AM (Xander) Hunter October 2020