Poetry – Page 4 – Green and Grey

Obsession

You
Are everything
Sensual
Unique
Your voice
Achingly
Sublime
Ultimately
Yearning
Abundantly
Soulful
Unlike anyone else’s
You look so
Adorable
Sending shivers that
Undulate down my spine
You laugh
And I die
Seep through
Underscore my wholeness
Yet again with your
Angelic demons
Surging forth like the
Universe
Young
And timeless
Serpentine
Urchin
You make me
Ache and
Scream
Until I fall
Yelling
Amplified
Sonnets
Under the dying moon

Seeking Quicksilver

I once sat sagely
Beneath the tree
And focused on what
Was and wasn’t me
The deep gouged bark
Pressed into my back
I looked up at my oak
Sea of green on black
Branches swaying like
Snakes in the sky
I found myself there
And in my mind’s eye
Noticed I was travelling
And yet sitting still
Body patiently waiting
As the silver soul will
Go travelling off
With the spirits and sprites
Leave day down below
And travel into night
Landing in the dark
My wings disappear
Wrapped all in shadows
The bright ones appear
Surround me laughing
With their glowing Fae lights
Teeth and claws hiding
Behind masks of delight
And I smile truly
As I become me
My human dissolving
And I shed it with glee
Fingers grow longer
And nails and hair
Teeth become sharper
I am more aware
Feeling him near me
Wandering thrill
Knowing his heart
Beats for mine still
We gaze in the waters
Formed by the dew
Our futures entwining
Past and present too
I reach towards him
And he towards me
His eyes quicksilver
An ocean unseen
Since the dawn of time
And far beyond then
Dancing my shadows
Arora tinged skin
Licking that spark
At the centre of self
And it blazes brightly
Flamed serpentine elf
All becomes brighter
Such colours appear
Swirling around me
To hold me right here
Be one forever and
Never look back
Feeling such wholeness
Not that I lack
Something I can’t quite
Fathom or grasp
The fear of it spasms
The death rattle rasps
And that dull ache
Returns with such force
I remember what was
As time takes its course
And I find myself sitting
Beneath that oak tree
Wondering what was
And what wasn’t me

About the poem

Step into the Mystery

Step into the mystery
Through the serpent gate
Teeth and claw and
Hoof and jaw and
Death and life await

Step into the mystery
Walk the hidden path
Light and gleams
Of eyes unseen
As shadows dance and laugh

Step into the mystery
Which way will you choose
The way you see
May just not be
And maybe you will lose

Step into the mystery
Right into this ring
The world you know
May decide to go
And leave you wandering

Step into the mystery
Tell me what you see
Can’t trust your eyes
They might tell lies
And then where would you be

My Soul’s Ache

You are under my skin
And in my bones
My blood sings
For you
When you are near
I feel the deepest
Throbbing
As my veins
Reach
For you
Blood to blood
Your touch
On my shoulder
Stroke of my cheek
Calls to something
Hidden
Deep within the shadows
Of this soul’s
Essence
Beyond mortality
Beyond physicality
My ache is
Never
Sated
Unless you are near
Your voice
The sweetest music
Slides
Down my throat
Like nectar
Sending me into
Ecstatic
Dreams
I breathe up stars
Knowing the wonder of
Your universe
Is right here
In this rose that blooms
Where my heart
Should lie
The depths of
Nothingness
Is kept at bay by the
Glint
Of your eyes
Captured
In the mirror of
Its blackness
You hold me
Within your red
And green
And I watch
As all else
Fades
Until there is
Only you
Drawn out like
A sigh
On a cool
Summer breeze
I drift
Over the rainbowed mist
Of the everlasting
Dust
Dancing
To the cosmic ebb
And flow
At once mountain
Rock
And sand
You fill me up
Until I
Writhe
In your brightness
And glow
Like the fullest
Moon
You are within
Every
Part
Of me
Skin, bone
And breath
My life
A song meant
For you
Alone
Joy of my heart
My soul’s
Sweet
Ache

Soul Spirit

Touching you is like stroking sunshine
You fill my heart till it overflows
I take your hand and I feel like I’m flying
To wonder land I go

You smile and my world is lit up
Everything is brand new
I breathe you in and it seems like I’m dying
The world grows see through

To be part of you is all I could hope for
I never knew that you were so near
Beneath my skin, or am I under yours
We’re both right here

This brightness sparkles with me
I fade away and yet will never leave
This great expanse has always been my playground
See such webs we weave

When I leave the world crashes on me
I feel its weight like a note that’s out of tune
It’s all discords and I just feel like crying
Alone in my room

But I know that you’re always with me
I can reach out to you at any time
My heart is whole, shining out from within me
Heals this soul of mine

If I Said I Love You

If I said I love you
You’d go away
Just up and leave and
Never stay

If I said I love you
You’d stop and stare
Like I said something horrid
Or had snakes for hair

If I said I love you
I’d be alone again
You’d distance yourself
And I’d lose another friend

If I said I love you
Let’s get real
It doesn’t matter
What I think or feel

If I said I love you
But now you are here
So I close my mouth
And hope against fear

Then I said I love you
Await the inevitable groan
You smile and say I love you too
And I am not alone?

I said I love you
Wait for you to go away
Make some excuse
And yet you choose to stay

I said I love you
Long to embrace this light
To bridge the yawning chasm
That stills the flowing fright

I said I love you
But fear still holds my hand
I share my heart with you
So you will understand

I say I love you
Despite what may occur
I confront my raging demons
Till they lay back and purr

Lammas Eve Lughnasadd

For Lughnasadd
For Lammas Eve
We’re standing here
With powdered sleeve
We knead this bread
This bread we knead
For Lughnasadd
For Lammas Eve

For Lammas Eve
For Lughnasadd
We’ve blessed this bread
With breath of Maat
With earth and water
Coven and hearth
For Lammas Eve
For Lughnasadd

It’s Lughnasadd
It’s Lammas Eve
And we’re all off
To Lammas Feast
With bread to share
And songs to weave
It’s Lughnasadd
It’s Lammas Eve

Listen to the song

Shadow Dance

I set fire to my shadow and watched it burn
The fire set free a rose
It blossomed and died and budded again
Through the blue-gold flame
Petals turning black

I set fire to my shadow and watched it dance
Life’s bright spark
Illuminating all around it
It’s blaze alighting others
Coming together in one blissful union

I set fire to my shadow and watched it rise
Grow wings and fly high up
Climb stars and pass strange worlds
Glimmering and winking
From the inky black ash

I set fire to my shadow and watched it smolder
With hidden passions and smothered anger
Barely contained and swelling within
Glaring darkly from behind
Thickly hooded eyes

I set fire to my shadow and watched it
Embraced it
And set it free
And I wondered
What change is in stall for me

Footprints

I see the footprints
In the air
And know the time for you to leave
Is near

I really don’t want to
Let you go
But I can’t keep you
Here, I know

You have to go and
Chase your star
It’s blinking and shining up
There so far

How can I tell you how
Much I care
Or that I really will miss you
Being there

For I see footprints
In the air
And know the time for you to leave
Draws near

You say that it is not
Good bye
You will not forget me but
Your words lie

Without meaning to you will
Forget
That I am here, what we shared
And kept

They will fade away and
Disappear
I know that yet can’t keep
You here

For I see footprints
In the air
And know the time for you to leave
Is here

Listen to the Song

Beauty

I gaze with wonder
At the beauty of a tree
Yet no matter how
Hard I try to see
I am never able
To see beauty in me

It’s party the word
For beauty is tainted
With barbs and thorns
With acid it’s painted
And it still burns,
Stings, is never sated

I’ve been called that
Since the age of five
Called beauty meaning ugly,
Boring, fat, uninspired
Meaning we hate you
Why don’t you just die?

I’ve tried to reclaim it
It use it with love
Embrace its true meaning
Send it off like a dove
To bring peace to my life
Here, below and above

But then I remember
What answer was given
To one who asked why
Such a name in derision
‘Because she’s so ugly’
Those words are still risen

Being with friends
Who wanted to know
What I thought of me
Hid under the bed so
They could record and replay
But my voice was too low

I was told that I should
Want to beat myself up
That to think anything else
Was just arrogant fluff
As for wearing bright colours?
Good grief, no. Enough!

And so here I am
There is only me
No ghostly remembrances
Or derisive glee
Surely now I am able?
Beauty can see?